and another thing —

About 30 minutes after that last post, I’m feeling grateful for the people around me who love me.  I’m thankful for Matt’s love, too, even if it didn’t last long enough.  I can’t imagine how hard this would be without so many people who want to help me and who care about me.  It’s hard for me to see and feel thankful for that sometimes, but I’m trying to work on that.  There are so, so many emotions running through me at any given moment that it’s hard for me to focus and react and make decisions and all that, but they say that time brings clarity out of all this chaos. 

Anyway.  I’m very thankful for my family and for Matt’s (who seem to want me to remain a member of their family – which is a relief and a comfort), and for all Matt’s friends and my friends.  I’ve heard that there are people out there who don’t even know me but still care about me and this situation, which I don’t quite understand but I’m not going to argue.

So.  Thank you.