a list

Some things that make me feel good

– A clean house
– Flowers
– Productivity
– Making things
– Being at home
– Reading
– Playing my guitar
– Drawing
– Working out :-/
– Being financially responsible
– Being financially irresponsible
– Seeing people when I feel like it
– Being alone when I feel like it
– Having friends who don’t mind arbitrary texts
– Being nice to other people
– Autumn
– Remembering that Matt wasn’t the only person who loved me
– Eating well

I need to make myself a Plan. Structure is a good thing. I ought to make a spreadsheet or something to keep track of what days I should work out, what days I should work on quilts, what days I should clean the bathroom. As it is, a lot of this stuff only gets accomplished when I’m ALREADY feeling good. I’m so glad that fall is happening soon though – when the weather cools down I always have so much more energy.

Anyway. Just wanted to make this list. Maybe I’ll turn it into a Plan soon.

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I'm a young, childless widow who is trying to figure out the best way to deal with the world in light of my late husband's suicide. It's harder than I ever imagined it would be, but somehow at the same time I am still alive and even happy sometimes.

2 thoughts on “a list”

  1. I heard someone say once that when you are depressed, you should imagine what you’d be doing if you were NOT depressed, then do it. This will make you snap out of it, they said. Since that time I have been 1) blue–a case in which this plan always works, and b) depressed–a case in which it works or doesn’t work to varying degrees.

    I am glad that it works for you sometimes!


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