so many evenings are still spent just going through the motions. this evening, I’ve been cleaning the house and just realized that each room is pretty well in order, and everything looks neat and clean. and good…but currently it’s just making me feel emptier. so my house is clean. so I’m able to make myself go through all the motions. yay. (hope you can hear the lack of enthusiasm in my tone….)

in this moment, I’m reminding myself that every step is still a victory.

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I'm a young, childless widow who is trying to figure out the best way to deal with the world in light of my late husband's suicide. It's harder than I ever imagined it would be, but somehow at the same time I am still alive and even happy sometimes.

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  1. You know what I realized the other day. Mitch passed away on the same date as Matt, Feb. 20. It’s hard to believe that it’s been 10 years since his passing, and I still miss him just as much. If I think about him for too long, I will start crying. That love never goes away, and I think that’s a testament to the impact they had in our lives. I will keep praying for you.


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