in an effort to stay awake, I am writing another one

seriously, this coffee is NOT kicking in.  and I’ve had at least a good cup so far.  don’t really want to go make any more either because it doesn’t exactly taste great.  I keep taking my jacket off because I’m too warm, then putting it back on in 5 minutes because I’m too cold.  gah.

going to have to actually mail those boots back, dammit.  well, whatever.  there are worse things.

I’m trying to decide what books to bring with me this week.  I need a good novel to immerse myself in, and my first instinct is to bring either Jane Eyre or Rebecca.  But I’m also thinking that I should perhaps read a book I haven’t already read multiple times, too.  Like Master and Margarita, or some Nabokov novel.  Will probably bring that book of Nabokov short stories though, and also the Bill Nye book I still haven’t finished.  I also recently bought a Vonnegut book I’ve never read (Jailbird I think is what it’s called), so could bring that.  I may go study my library later today.

Also need to plan some meals.  I suggested that we each take one meal, so I have one breakfast, one lunch, and one dinner to figure out.  the cabin has a kitchen and an outside grill, so my options are pretty wide.  I have a lunch idea already – grilled cheese and soup.  Ooh, looks like it’s supposed to rain later this week – which would make for perfect cabin/reading/soup weather.  Must add candles to my packing list.

What do I want to do for breakfast?  Eggs, sausage, gravy, biscuits?  French toast?  Pancakes?

What about dinner?  Steaks?  Chicken and dumplins?  Burgers?  Pork tenderloin?  Fried chicken?  Any of these would be delicious, dammit.  How am I supposed to pick?  Also, all I had for breakfast was a packet of instant oatmeal so now I’m practically starving.

also my feet are super cold.  and I’m thinking about going home on my lunch break to take a nap.  I might actually do that.  a nap sounds so lovely…..

ok so tentatively, assuming Stephen doesn’t come up with the same ideas.  breakfast of eggs, sausage, gravy, and biscuits.  (plan b is french toast.)  lunch of grilled cheese and tomato caprese spinach soup.  dinner of steak, asparagus, potatoes, maybe something else.  (plan b for dinner is fried chicken, potatoes, maybe some fried apples, maybe asparagus or some other green)

ok, right.  damn I’m cold.  jacket is currently on, too.

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I'm a young, childless widow who is trying to figure out the best way to deal with the world in light of my late husband's suicide. It's harder than I ever imagined it would be, but somehow at the same time I am still alive and even happy sometimes.

2 thoughts on “in an effort to stay awake, I am writing another one”

  1. “also my feet are super cold” Why is there still no app for that? Like maybe some socks that use electric blanket technology. This would go great with a robot that would go around the house cleaning up any liquids on the floor.


    1. it’s mostly my fault (the cold feet thing) because I’m wearing heel – no socks. if I really WANTED warm feet, I would wear appropriate shoes. who’s to stop me from complaining though!


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