Day 6

I feel like I’m in the middle of a battle for …my life, basically.  And I’m completely unable to do anything about the outcome.


I’m so discouraged.

He says that he’s tried so hard all his life to make things better.  He’s tried everything they tell you to do – make friends, stay active, eat right, think positive – all that.  But nothing helps, he said.  Something in his brain is missing.  He’s not capable of getting better, he said.  He’s weak and stupid, he said.

Can’t somebody help?  What am I supposed to do??  I try to tell him that I think he’s strong and smart and capable of getting better, but he throws it in my face.

Please.  Somebody help.

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I'm a young, childless widow who is trying to figure out the best way to deal with the world in light of my late husband's suicide. It's harder than I ever imagined it would be, but somehow at the same time I am still alive and even happy sometimes.

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