I want to go shopping. But I’m not going to. It’s just my brain wanting the excitement of immediate gratification, and since that’s the Worst Reason Ever to go shopping, it’s not going to happen. I can tell that it would make me feel better though. Which is bothersome.

Stupid brain.

I have nothing planned for this week so far – clean slate. Unfortunately, the weather report is looking pretty grey and rainy so I’ll probably be spending another week inside.

Started reading Bridgett Jones’s Diary again on a whim. I need something more substantial to read though, too. What should I read next?? I’d like to get into the Foundation series….again………….but um…..

The neck on my guitar needs to be adjusted, I think. I can’t even play it right now. This is a sad thing. I should get it fixed.

Finished doing my taxes last week! Ha! That’s always gratifying.

I really need a new big project. But like what? Why do I have such a hard time motivating myself to do shit sometimes? Does this happen to other people too, or is it just me? I wonder if I’m doing something wrong. All this free time I have because of my lack of dependents…I should really utilize it better than I do. Hm.

So this is basically what is my brain is looking like now. Oh, and I’m almost embarrassed to admit this, but all the stuff about Woody Allen is making me really want to watch Annie Hall (which I would probably do if I actually owned the movie).

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I'm a young, childless widow who is trying to figure out the best way to deal with the world in light of my late husband's suicide. It's harder than I ever imagined it would be, but somehow at the same time I am still alive and even happy sometimes.

7 thoughts on “randoms”

  1. Aw, you shouldn’t be embarrassed by wanting to watch Annie Hall. I really like that movie. But maybe I’m missing something—not sure what “all this about Woody Allen” means.

    Let me know if you want suggestions on what your next big project should be. I have ideas.


    1. I’m thinking it might be time to start a new quilt. And I’m thinking that I might do that chess one from Matt’s clothes. This is really good quilting weather.


  2. Meet new people – people different from you – and have deep and meaningful conversations. This would satisfy your need for a substantial read AND the lack of gorgeous weather. Relationships are worth more. I was going to end that last sentence with a few words following “more,” but couldn’t think of only a few – the reality of it is, relationships are worth MORE. Than anything. Relationships with God, family, friends, complete strangers (who may become part of the third category after a conversation or two).

    Also, old friends are wonderful, new friends are great, family is fantastic, but God is constant. No matter if you can see the sun above the thunderstorm or feel its warmth over the beating of the rain, it’s still there and will eventually show itself again. Not to mention, you could learn to fly and gather the courage to fly through the rain, lightning, and clouds up to meet the sun and clear skies above. Not that it’s easy, but hey, what’s ever been easy that turned out to be all that great?

    Anyway, that’s my schpeel. Love you, sister ❤


  3. Hey Erin, call or text me if you want to have your guitar adjusted. We take all ours to Joe Glaser over in Berry Hill. He’s great! I would be happy to go over there with you…maybe we could have coffee at Sam and Zoe’s while we are out!


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