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And as long as I’m posting memes I didn’t make up —

 

just spoke with my boss, and am feeling 100% relieved. she always makes it clear that they really value me here and want me to be in a position where I am happy and effective. she said that they have already been throwing around some other ideas for me anyway, which was really great to hear. I’m feeling SO MUCH BETTER OMG.

Will someone make this for me for Christmas, please?

why is it that movies always paint misery and depression and dissatisfaction in a romantic light? almost every time, these are made to look poetic, meaningful, sometimes even beautiful in a sense – and (when I am not too enthralled with the movie to not notice) this has always seemed like a misleading, inaccurate, and unfair portrayal of life.

You might say that since we all experience pain and depression at some point during our lives, we all know that pain in real life does not feel like pain in the movies. That said, it’s also true that misery and dissatisfaction can be the most effective catalysts toward personal growth, so they are certainly not without a silver lining. Maybe, with this knowledge in mind, we try to make art less a representation of what real life actually feels like as it is happening, and more a representation of the bigger picture of pain and suffering in general. In that sense, it’s OK to paint a picture of pain as being cathartic and rewarding and beautiful – because these things can certainly come through pain.

So really, maybe my complaint should not be with movies; it should be with my interpretation of movies and my assumption that they should be like real life.

New goal: always go into movies expecting them to be extravagant works of art, not accurate portrayals of real life (or of books, for that matter).

(Don’t call me though, please. Unless you want to buy paper – then please do call.)

Today, I am trying to remember that I can control my attitude at work. Even though work feels like the least important or interesting thing right now, the fact is that I have to work if I want to be able to pay bills or anything else. So in that sense, work is actually pretty damned important. Unfortunately.

I have about a million things I would rather be doing right now. But. It’s important for me to be thankful that I have a job, thankful that my coworkers like me, and thankful that I have a life outside of work that I enjoy. Maybe this will help me to remember these things today.

I’m getting business cards. My title is “Business Development.”

Just thought I’d share since I know you all care. 🙂

I feel so completely inadequate when I look at other sales reps. I think that I’ve probably told all of you this in person, but if you had asked me last year what jobs I absolutely never saw myself in, sales rep would have been #2 on the list (following truck driver).

Granted, inside sales is different from outside sales. But I just don’t think that I have the personality for this. I suspect that my own hesitation is being a hindrance though, as everyone was familiar with my personality before they asked me if I was interested in this job.

That said, I still don’t like meetings.

so far —–

1) one of my customers has started buying packaging materials from me! I’m not sure if I’ve stressed just how small my accounts are, but they are all VERY SMALL. so this is kind of a big deal.

2) Anna Laura sent me a really nice email yesterday that made me feel really good. (thank you!) I should send nice emails to people more often. sometimes I get stuck in my head for long periods of time I think.

3) I hope no one reading this works for AT&T, because I recently changed my plan such that my cell phone and Uverse bill total around $100/month. this is possible because I’m still on a family plan even though I just have one phone on it; when they canceled Matt’s line, they did not cancel my plan. eh heh heh heh.

4) planning to drive down the Natchez Trace tonight to look at stars. this is the kind of thing I need to do to get out of my head more.

5) even though it shouldn’t matter as much as I let it, I do have people in my life who like me and this makes me very very glad.

Being around lately is making me feel pretty blah. That’s kind of a gapingly broad statement so I guess I should clarify that “the norm” isn’t cutting it at the moment.

I’m thinking that my ability to do a job well has little to do with the enjoyment that I get out of doing said job. I didn’t much enjoy restaurant management – though granted, there were a few parts that I liked. I actually kind of liked customer service. I enjoy being able to help people with problems or questions, and even though I don’t particularly like talking on the phone I didn’t have a problem overcoming that in customer service. I know I’ve been griping about this sales job for a few months now, and I know that I keep saying that I’m not making any decisions about changing until I can get an idea for how much more money I’ll be making. But they don’t even know how they’re going to be evaluating the bonus situation which is EXTREMELY demotivating.

So I’ve spent an embarrassingly large amount of time today trying to find a bridesmaid dress for Amanda’s wedding (which is a week from Saturday). Did you guys know that you are really supposed to order things like bridesmaid dresses several weeks in advance because they tend to be custom-made? Ugh. I didn’t. So I found this one (below) which is just a regularly-sized dress and in stock and I paid for 3-day shipping. That way, if it doesn’t fit, I can go to the Green Hills Mall. Which is exactly what I did for Anna Laura’s wedding.

If it fits, I’m sure you’ll hear about it. If it doesn’t fit, I’ll probably complain about that as well. We’ll see! I don’t know if 3-day shipping means that it’ll get here Saturday, or Monday.

OK. I’m going to stop being unproductive and start being productive. I cannot wait to get home and play Skyrim tonight though. (Got my Breton character Astrud up to a level 100 in smithing AND in enchanting last night, so going to have some fun with dual-enchanting some dragonbone stuff.)